Well, our little family is growing and I couldn’t be more excited! After many years of tears, heartache, frustration, and questioning, Colin and I got the surprise of a lifetime at the beginning of December.
Let me back up a bit…
[Disclaimer: the following contains some pretty personal info and if you’d rather not read details about my ovaries, uterus, and menstrual cycles feel free to skip the next paragraph…or three 😉 ]
I think the last I left off about any sort of fertility anything was more than a year ago after we tried our fourth round of fertility medication to which my body didn’t respond at all. I was a wreck! The high amount of hormones in my system combined with the loss of faith in my body left me a blubbering mess. At this point Colin and I decided to take a break trying anything and to regroup in the early summer to decide what our next steps may be. I applied for yoga teacher training and switched jobs which provided a significant amount of distraction, and was able to let some of the pressure go. It felt good.
In early June I decided I wanted to start acupuncture again. I hadn’t had a cycle in about 10 months at this point and was feeling a little desperate. I decided to go to a new acupuncturist with whom I immediately clicked and three weeks after starting treatment I got a period. I felt so encouraged! I remained consistent with weekly sessions and had another cycle in August/September. This was HUGE for me as the last period I had on my own was December 2009, and the handful of others over the years to follow came as a result of fertility medication.
Then something weird happened. The first week of November I experienced about 5 days of a super light flow/spotting. My acupuncturist thought it may be a cyst and recommended I go to my Ob/Gyn and get on birth control. I didn’t end up doing that and instead waited to see what the rest of the month brought. Well, about two weeks later I had clear signs of ovulation. Two weeks after that I had major PMS symptoms and was convinced that my period would come any day. One week passed and nothing happened and I was sure something was wrong. I decided to take a pregnancy test just to rule it out.
Colin was out of town for work and I woke up at 4AM having to go to the bathroom. I decided to test right then. Well, it took about 15 seconds to show up a strong positive. I was shocked. I crawled back in bed and somehow convinced myself that it was probably a false positive and decided I’d test again later. I waited three whole days to take a second test… and this time I bought the expensive one 😀
Up until now I hadn’t told Colin because I was sure it wouldn’t “stick” and felt worried to get both our hopes up. Finally, I couldn’t take it any longer and just blurted it out mid-conversation over dinner. I had all these ideas of how I would tell him in some cute way, but that went right out the window! We were both pretty emotional but still felt cautious. Regardless, we decided that even if it didn’t work out this time, it was such a great sign that my body could get pregnant all on its own!
We made it to January 14th and (finally) our first appointment. After doing a ton of research, I decided to go with a midwifery group attached to the university hospital. This particular group got tons of great reviews and I liked that there were all sorts of options. I could go as natural as I wanted (water birth!) for no extra cost or I could select as much medical intervention (epidural!) as I wanted. They have low c-section rates and extremely low episiotomy rates.
The first appointment was pretty basic-urine sample, blood sample, full medical history. After about 45-minutes with the midwife we went across the hall for a sonogram. Since I was a little shy of 10-weeks at this point we wouldn’t be able to hear the heartbeat with a doppler, but we would just be able to see the baby and (hopefully) see the heartbeat. I was super nervous!
She squirted gel on my stomach and placed the wand down and instantly the baby popped up on the screen. It was incredible…seriously the most precious thing I’ve ever seen! The midwife continued to move the wand around and there was clearly something else. I pointed to it and said “um…what is that?” The midwife assured me it was just the gestational sac and we breathed a little sigh of relief. She kept moving it around and then said she wanted to do a vaginal ultrasound to see the baby a little closer. She inserted it and asserted confidently “yep, that’s just the gestational sac” and then proceeded to point out the baby’s heart and said it was beating strong. She then said, “Actually, I just wanted to grab the OB working today to make sure that other spot isn’t something”.
The OB was with a patient so we had to wait 15 minutes…the LONGEST 15 minutes of my life. Finally the OB walked in, introduced herself, took hold of the ultrasound and changed the angle slightly. It took about five seconds for her to declare:
“TWINS! Two beautiful babies with two beautiful heartbeats.”
The rest of the time at the office was a bit of a blur, but I do remember hearing that we were no longer qualified for midwifery care and I was now considered a high-risk case.
After a little while and the news set in, and we both began to feel extremely excited. Two babies! After longing for one baby for so long I started to feel incredibly blessed.
So there you have it. The super long pregnancy post! I plan to check-in at least weekly to post progress pics, so check back often.
Thank you for all the good thoughts, love, emails, and positive words that so many of you have sent over the years. I appreciate your support so much!